Sunday, September 19, 2010
Friday, September 17, 2010
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
I'm on Drugs
"My name is Brant, and I'm on mind-altering drugs.
"Fluoxetine, to be exact. 20 mg a day. It's for my brain, which isn't normal. Or, perhaps it's very normal, given the millions currently taking fluoxetine, or its name-brand equivalent, Prozac. I've been taking fluoxetine for the past year."
I don't take Prozac. I take three other medications. I still deal with depression and anger and other nice little brain-twisters. But with the mind-altering drugs I am (comparatively) sane. I wonder some of the same things Brant wonders, though, about Christians taking drugs. Read his post "Is Jesus Enough?"
http://branthansen.typepad.com/letters_from_kamp_krusty/2007/12/is-jesus-enough.html
Someone replied to Brant's post with this "Some people just feel life deeper....It is like a burden that is almost too heavy to bear. Too many thoughts, too many feelings, too much for one person."
I feel that, but wonder if it's a cop out. Maybe everyone feels deeply. Maybe I just don't handle it as well as most people. Maybe that last is a beat-yourself-up thought. Maybe there is no telling.
I know people get sick of my negativity so I try not to talk to anyone if I can't be positive. (And you still get sick of it!) And I try to fake it and the more I do the better I get at it. Sometimes I hope if I fake it enough it will become real but it never does. I just get to walk around with this about-to-cry heaviness that turns to anger and sometimes-oh joy!-to giddy, need-speed, can't-shut-up happiness. And all this on drugs that control it!!
I feel pretty safe whining and feeling sorry for myself for a minute here because nobody reads my blog--that's okay, the same is true for most people and their blogs--but if by some chance you do read this don't hold it against me just this once, okay? Thanks.
"Fluoxetine, to be exact. 20 mg a day. It's for my brain, which isn't normal. Or, perhaps it's very normal, given the millions currently taking fluoxetine, or its name-brand equivalent, Prozac. I've been taking fluoxetine for the past year."
I don't take Prozac. I take three other medications. I still deal with depression and anger and other nice little brain-twisters. But with the mind-altering drugs I am (comparatively) sane. I wonder some of the same things Brant wonders, though, about Christians taking drugs. Read his post "Is Jesus Enough?"
http://branthansen.typepad.com/letters_from_kamp_krusty/2007/12/is-jesus-enough.html
Someone replied to Brant's post with this "Some people just feel life deeper....It is like a burden that is almost too heavy to bear. Too many thoughts, too many feelings, too much for one person."
I feel that, but wonder if it's a cop out. Maybe everyone feels deeply. Maybe I just don't handle it as well as most people. Maybe that last is a beat-yourself-up thought. Maybe there is no telling.
I know people get sick of my negativity so I try not to talk to anyone if I can't be positive. (And you still get sick of it!) And I try to fake it and the more I do the better I get at it. Sometimes I hope if I fake it enough it will become real but it never does. I just get to walk around with this about-to-cry heaviness that turns to anger and sometimes-oh joy!-to giddy, need-speed, can't-shut-up happiness. And all this on drugs that control it!!
I feel pretty safe whining and feeling sorry for myself for a minute here because nobody reads my blog--that's okay, the same is true for most people and their blogs--but if by some chance you do read this don't hold it against me just this once, okay? Thanks.
Monday, September 6, 2010
iMonk
Have discovered a site where the writings keep slamming me up against the wall. Some of them I want to call to your attention. Here's an excerpt from one:
"The reason I am unafraid to side with the dissenters and those asking questions that aren’t allowed is that history is moving to our side. The manipulators of orthodoxy are in trouble. They’ve taken our confidence and put the screws to us for the sake of their own power. The celebrity-driven churches are, for the most part, going to be exposed as having no clothes. The laboratories that produce these evangelical clones are shutting down as the experiments seem to have gone horribly wrong. The deluded majority can act as if they have squashed everyone’s arguments and rendered all competing opinions foolish, but in fact, quite the opposite is happening. A lot of people are dissenting, even in an atmosphere of intimidation and spiritual abuse. Write all the books and blogs you want. Have a conference and get 3000 men to wring their hands with you. You aren’t gong to stop the collapse of the kind of authoritarian fundamentalism that wants to keep all of evangelicalism in a stranglehold. It’s over."
Read the full post at
http://www.internetmonk.com/archive/talk-hard-ii-defending-dissent#more-2817
"The reason I am unafraid to side with the dissenters and those asking questions that aren’t allowed is that history is moving to our side. The manipulators of orthodoxy are in trouble. They’ve taken our confidence and put the screws to us for the sake of their own power. The celebrity-driven churches are, for the most part, going to be exposed as having no clothes. The laboratories that produce these evangelical clones are shutting down as the experiments seem to have gone horribly wrong. The deluded majority can act as if they have squashed everyone’s arguments and rendered all competing opinions foolish, but in fact, quite the opposite is happening. A lot of people are dissenting, even in an atmosphere of intimidation and spiritual abuse. Write all the books and blogs you want. Have a conference and get 3000 men to wring their hands with you. You aren’t gong to stop the collapse of the kind of authoritarian fundamentalism that wants to keep all of evangelicalism in a stranglehold. It’s over."
Read the full post at
http://www.internetmonk.com/archive/talk-hard-ii-defending-dissent#more-2817
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